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Open mic and other disastrously beautiful night occurrences

So, I went to an open mic night in the evening and it was pretty good. I got to see a few talented young individuals that were rather passionate about their art of choice.

For example, there was a boy who wanted to get into the business of music. What he did was play us one of his originals on the piano and rapped on the mic. There were tons of spoken word poetry that performed as well.

One of the most memorable, the one that I could understand the most was one from a lovely lady named Jasmine. Most her poems were family orientated. In her first poem she presented us with a picture of where she fit in her family. In her second, how her grandmother thought she fit (you should keep in mind that Jasmine was mixed raced and her grandmother was racist). In her third she presented us with an image of her mothers spiralling dementia. In her fourth she talked about her father (who had died a few years prior). And finally, in her fifth she really highlighted how difficult it was to get up on stage.

Another performer (whose name I cannot recall but wish I did) rapped to the instrumental of Jay-Z instrumental, 99 problems but a bitch ain’t one. Except she replaced the words “bitch” with “food”. I missed most of the introduction because I needed to use the loo but I had grasped the main idea of it when walking back in. The rap was about how a casting team said she was fat so she could not get the role. This was when she was barely a size 10. And it was the best because it was really funny.

I think that this night has taught me a lot. Really, I do. I think it has taught me all about what I liked. What I was attracted to the most. Which is funny because I though I knew what I liked. I thought that I had developed quite sophisticated writing style. But really, I hadn’t.

I think I can do so much damn more with my writing style. I’m still a baby in the world of writing.

I’m going to another open mic night on Monday. That is, if I can make it. I’m doing quite a lot on Monday. I start associate mentoring with the challenge which is so darn exciting. I cannot wait any longer. Though, I am afraid. Because I haven’t really done this in so very long.

Anyway, after the open mic, we went to McDonald’s (my friends and I) and started talking. We talked about a lot. But the one thing that stuck out to me during the night was the London riots.

Now, the London riots happened so long ago. When I was younger than I am now. Most of the people that took part in the riots were from boroughs (areas) that were close to where I lived. We all agreed that the politicians reporting at the time did not know anything. For example, one of them kept saying “why aren’t these kids in school. Why aren’t they in school!” When we had our summer holidays. So it was clear that they weren’t as connected to us youths as they believed.

I think something else I realised was that the London riots was large scale. I thought it had been rather concentrated in certain areas of the city. Even thought that was true, I seemed to easily dismiss the effect which occurred in the less concentrated parts of London. I had brushed it off as if they didn’t really happen and the effect of it was nothing. But it was. People were scared. Guns were still fired. But non was reported on the news.

The only thing that restored the image of the youth in London was the big clean up that happened the morning after. If that had not happened, our image would have been tarnished for good. The clean up showed adults that yes, there were bad kids but there were good kids as well and they shouldn’t forget that.

Really, there’s a lot that happened tonight. Friendships, open mic, starbucks, romance, talks, McDonald’s, green hair, guitars, spoken word performances, rappers, singers, hooting and hollering and the list goes on.

But I’m really tired. So, I’m going to bed now.

Night x

P.S.

So, I thought I published this last night but I actually just saved it. So, I’m publishing it now.

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The inequalities of an urbanised City

The area that I live in is one of those ghettoised areas that the government tries so hard to refurbish. But it never quite works. Mostly because no one cares anymore. We’ve all given up in our area looking the best and we are quite content on what it has to offer. As long as we can walk around, there are a few parks and major supermarkets, I don’t think anyone minds too terribly if our area is the poorest in London. But, that, is mainly because of the people. Because we are way too familiar with the prospects of always gaining less than what we want.

Like, I went to one of the rich parts of London with my school once. Don’t get me twisted, it wasn’t the snazzy rich parts of London like the West End or anything. It was a part of London which was so intrinsically rich that I found myself feeling sick while we passed through it on the coach. And it’s weird, because the thing that made me the most sick was imagining their daily lives. How the kids would all commute to school in a car with their parents driving them. Because it was one of those places where you couldn’t possibly get around the area terribly easy without a car. I also thought about how they would probably have somewhere where they could sit and do their homework. And not only that, but the fact that they could chose where they did their homework. Their bedrooms with a desk or on the dining room table. They could also have a meal everyday. Three times a day without it being a struggle for crying out loud! With loads of snacks and fizzy drinks and all that. And they would have their own bedrooms, their own space where they wouldn’t need to share with anyone. And they could personalise that space how ever they wanted to. If they liked the Jonas Brothers or something they could deck their walls with posters of them. Only if they really wanted to. And they probably would. And I could do none of that. I could do none of it.

I should probably explain my mentality before visiting that area a little bit more. Basically, I was of the belief that there was absolutely no difference between a person who was richer than me and myself. I had always believed that “yeah, they got opportunities” but so did I. I could go on the school’s netball team, I could play the violin, I could get an A in maths. I could do all of that. But, never did I dream that these “opportunities” ran so deep. So deep into the way they lived. It never crossed my mind that our basic needs were met in different ways.

I think that’s why it all astounded me so much. Made me sick to my stomach. I couldn’t help but think that all these opportunities were lost on me, because when I needed them the most, I didn’t get them. I was stripped of what they would class as basic needs, one after the other and I’d never regain them. And that made me sick. That made me so astonishingly sick.

I’m not saying that I’m ungrateful for all the hard work my mum has done for me in the past. Please, don’t get me wrong. My mum did her best with what she had. She provided for me in a way no one else could. And for many, many years I did not realise I was at all at a disadvantage to others because of my parents financial income. As I said before, it never even crossed my mind. But a few weeks ago, it did. And it’s sad that there are still differences. And I’m aware that I sound like a selfish and spoiled teenager but this has been on my mind for a while. The weird and mild inequalities that continue to erode at the foundations of my life. It just started getting to me. Real deep and all.

It’s like all these people are superman, their fists curled into a ball, resting on the slight dip of their waists, sitting on the spinning globe of the Daily Planet. And I’m some passerby, staring up in awe at the mighty and merciful power of the people. And, damn, do I hate that role in life. It’s damn near paralysing.

I just hate this stupid world because my role in it is damn near catatonic.